*counseling day* reading comments and answering!!
Nov 27, 2018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OT57YAR1Kg0

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fresh week it is oh my gosh you guys it
is far reason here it is 43 witches
probably a lot warmer than a lot of you
guys even are right now so my complaints
are being about being colder probably
completely irrational to which you guys
are all dealing with but it's self
raising for me um I have one of my new
shirts on that I got from Amazon
it's just orange it's the ones I'll have
to like I want to take good pictures of
all of them like all the colors and
stuff so you guys can see all of them
I'll try and do that today actually so I
can just put that in with today's vlog
so you guys can see what I'm talking
about when it multiple colors anyways
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um anyways so I just dropped Maya off
he's a little late to school thanks to
my lovely daughter as far she decided
that she needed to have a certain
cartoon on before I left and oh my gosh
I was just like please daughter please
so anyways I just dropped him off and
now I am going to go and meet someone
that is off of our channel actually and
I'm going to go and deliver a bag bag I
mean bag clothes so I'm gonna go and do
that then I'm gonna go grab me coffee so
I can wake my fish up and then I am off
to counseling so anywho start driving
what we're talking meet up with her
before I go to counseling anyways I did
my nails over I think I showed you guys
a little bit
I don't know if you guys can see them
but they're really I mean I love them
the only problem I'm having because I
had to add extra gel product over the
little whatever you want to call them no
no decorators decorations I don't know
what you call annoying things they're
bugging me a little bit because they are
what do you want to say there that I can
feel I can't feel the bumps too much but
I can feel the bumps from the gel and
that's what's bugging me so I definitely
definitely well I mean I guess we do
have a fire station anyways
I can feel just the little bumps from
the gel that is trying to cover the
embellishment that I put on so I don't
know but knowing me because I'm anti
can't stand crap like that and I will
stay here and they got it and play with
it and annoy it that most likely I will
eventually take it off
but again that's the nice thing about
having you know they where you could do
your own nails is that you can do them
every day if you wanted to um it's not
gonna hurt anything so I mean it's not
damaging my nose cuz it's over there
like so my acrylics on and I'm not
touching anything else so it's just
literally me putting gel over all but I
don't know because it takes it does take
time to do it cuz I've got to drill all
of the color off and you know all that
good stuff but it's okay
I don't know if I do then I'll show you
guys what's on it - might you do it Phil
because I'm lazy like that but anyways
so I am gonna go and grab my coffee like
I was saying and then I am going to head
off to counseling after I drop this bag
off and then after counseling I will
definitely check in with you guys I'm
gonna talk to my counselor and see if
maybe she'd be okay with me doing some
vlogging while I'm in counseling but it
would only be directed on me I don't
know just yet because they don't know
how all that works I don't know like
Privacy Act I don't know you know so I'd
have to discuss that with her and I
don't know for reveal to discuss that
today because I haven't been in
counseling and it almost seems to be
like two weeks because I didn't have
counseling last money because we were
off holiday so of course there's a lot
of catching up and talking about
everything so I don't know if that's
gonna be something nice you know
we are going to do or not only you guys
know if we decide to do that or if I
decide to talk about that to date with
her but anyways I hope you guys are all
having a wonderful start to your Monday
remember it's a fresh week to make good
good strides to stick to your goals that
you've set them to you know for yourself
and always look at the bright side of
things
and I will check in with you guys
why is it that everybody in Salem wants
Starbucks this morning
walking
I'm gonna be blocking traffic sure
everybody's gonna love me whoa it's
gonna toast II toasty toasty in here oh
I'm so happy I was able to get that back
to her and visit for just a few seconds
before I'm had to run she brought me
some scones this morning she's such a
sweetheart I love her I need to put so
Starbucks I don't know if any of you
guys do this tell me if you do
Starbucks told me that I should put
money on my card and then I can use my
card and that will give me like Senate
is for like free coffees and stuff like
that I've never done it yet I have the
card I just need to put it together and
do it so I think I've been dreaming I
have been drinking the more Starbucks
than anything and the reason for that
being is because I don't think I've
enough time
what time is it 15 minutes I've been
doing Starbucks because there's nothing
wrong with Dutch brothers nothing at all
but lately I've been able to calculate
my calories through Starbucks easier
than Dodge Brothers because doctor
others they don't have like a
nutritional fact so it's really hard
like I mean I go off of what you know I
can like research and stuff like that
but it's not guaranteed amount of
calories and I really like to have that
spot on because they don't want to be at
one point thinking that I'm drinking a
coffee that's 60 calories in a reality
you know it's even a hundred calorie
drink you know so this one that I drink
every day it's literally I know exactly
to the point how many calories it is so
it's not anything that's a question to
me if it's good or bad or too high in
calories or whatever because it's like
spot-on exactly what it's supposed to be
so I definitely am been drinking
Starbucks more than I have anything else
which I mean I enjoy my Starbucks it's
fine let me can I do a venti iced
caramel macchiato skinny yeah a nice
skinny caramel macchiato upside down
so anyways so yeah so anyways I've been
drinking the Starbucks because I know I
know I know exactly what my calories are
so anyways that is what I am doing and
then I got a rush off because I've got
10 minutes to get to counselling so I am
praying that they keep the blank on me
because otherwise amy was gonna be in
some trouble because I still got to get
over the bridge and I'm hoping that
there's no traffic otherwise Amy's not
gonna be on time when you're trying to
get over a bridge okay you guys I'm
checking in with you I just got out of
counseling and went really good I love
my counselor she is oh she's amazing she
is honestly she's amazing I just love
love love love our sweet time together
but I am just getting out of counseling
so as I break my necklace that would be
great
remember so Starbucks had got me a
coffee well I don't think I ordered one
shot of coffee I think I think I didn't
say anything
so they put two shots in and I can't do
it it's literally going to
it's literally going to make me sick so
I'm gonna go back by and see if they
won't remake it for me I don't know if
they will but I'm sure hoping maybe they
will because but anyways consoling went
amazing as always
we talked about some really good
defining things we talked about
relationship goals and boundaries with
relationships because you know I've
never had I guess you would say like a
really a good respectful boundary made
relationship and that's why I believe a
lot of my relationships have failed in
the past because I never had boundaries
and neither did they
and you know a lot of people don't think
about boundaries they don't think about
well you know how to make a healthier
you know relationship
it's just what evolves is what evolves
but in reality relationships are all
about boundaries if you want to if you
want
a good healthy relationship that's going
to last a lifetime even in marriage you
have boundaries with your spouse to a
point you know because that is part of
growing a healthy relationship and so
that was a lot about what we talked
about today was just building that
respectful boundary made relationship
and we talked about my weight loss which
because I'm down 67 pounds you know I
just as my my pounds are shutting off I
don't I don't look at it as like losing
weight pounds when I look at myself and
see the these pounds coming off I view
it as the pain from the past is what's
coming off for me and the shame that I
carried from my my molestations and my
rape and my physical abuse and my
emotional abuse and my verbal abuse that
I was you know
that I was put through and I used my
weight as a protection for all my years
of my life
so for 37 years for 36 years 37 years I
you know my weight has been my protector
and now I'm starting to heal all of
those things that I suffered as you know
a child that I never dealt with but used
again my weight to be that protector I
don't need that protection anymore
because I'm learning how to heal myself
and I'm learning how to gain so much I'm
starting to gain that new confidence of
a person that I am that I don't need to
have that this weight on me to be the
protector protection because I can
protect myself just with the tools that
I'm learning through therapy and so it's
been amazing how and I look at it I
don't look at it as so much losing fat
as I am losing
and shedding the abuse off of my body
and it's amazing and also shedding off
that abuse of what I've put myself
through which is being obese and all the
medical issues that I've had to go
through because of it's just it's a nice
feeling to know that I am 67 pounds out
from have Dean to carry you know this
weight when I started I was 498 pounds
like you know I mean 498 pounds and I'm
down to 300 and 431 pounds that's a lot
of weight so far just to be down since
July 11 July 11th you guys is when I
started this journey of losing weight
and I'm so proud of myself to finally be
able to say you know I can do this and I
will it was a good counseling session
though we really had a good counseling
session next week is gonna be a lot more
because it's just something that we just
started like barely stepping into
conversation about a few things but we
ran out of time so we didn't want to get
too far into the conversation because
it's definitely something that it's
gonna take a little bit more
communicating so
I am going to next week have a lot more
to talk about but anyways I will check
in with you guys in a little bit I'm
going to fix this coffee and call Ollie
because we need to run and go what take
care of some business and so I will
check in with you at some point in the
next all right you guys I'm checking in
with you guys again so I went home
really quick I called my doctor's office
to check in about that black black out
filling and I have had a couple episodes
of it today too like weird I don't know
I don't understand it I don't know
what's going anyways so I called and
they're gonna call me back to see when
they can get me in and then hold on
honey and then we're going to go to the
post office and drop some mil off go pay
a different bill cuz bills are fun to
pay you know love a doll team in life
not really
hold on honey and we're gonna go get
ollie a drink
I already got my Starbucks and I had him
fix it because of that whole pudding to
two things and I can't it was way too
coffee tasting so honey so I went back
Henry fix it so I've got my coffee and I
mean I literally think I took like three
sips out of that coffee and trying to do
it so I wouldn't have that fixed
like I said all he's gonna go get his
drink and then her errands it's kind of
nasty out it was raining a little bit
ago so you see the moon in the sky
hold on honey here's that one yes yes
say thank you
I love how they copy everything they say
yes it is so anyways we just got some
few things to do and then we're gonna
head home and we run home or go home and
then I'm gonna finish up laundry and do
the fun wifey duties cleaning no
actually I can't say that because my
husband cleans a lot he does a lot of
what people call wifey duties I'm alive
and so that means we don't believe in
that but anyways yeah that's what we're
doing I would love a nap today
that's okay I think I'm gonna go online
and do my anyways I was gonna say that
I I'm gonna go online today and check
everything that I need to do to start my
business I need to find out exactly how
much budget wise I'm gonna need to start
all of that and then I'm going to also
be doing someone's nails on the side so
I'm going to go and get all the product
and stuff for that so that we have all
of that together so we can start on that
for her and I think that's it so not a
whole lot going on but enough to keep us
busy we have made it to another another
night another glorious not today has
been such a long day I am so looking
forward to just going to bed here soon
and I just because I think as I started
so early today I was just like it was
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definitely definitely tiring
was just a very long and I'm so glad
that it is 741 got the short amount of
time left to bathe kids get clothes
ready for school tomorrow and vitamins
brush teeth and feed a bit so I am
definitely death and deli looking
forward to bedtime tonight but today was
successful I will say we went and did
what we needed to do running around and
stuff like that but then I came home and
just just did some odds and ends of
things that needed to be done around my
like in when it has to do with the
laptop you know and so it was nice to be
able to get those things done I really
was desperately needing to sit and do
something I thought it that would be
kind of fun was to read a couple
comments and answer them with you guys
so something different I am not used to
it and I have common back to majority of
you guys but sometimes I can't get into
as much detail as I would like to
because it would take me forever so I
thought well you know why not why not do
it this way excuse the fact I have my
pullover on I am freezing tonight I am
cold and we had opened the windows
earlier because my lovely husband was
cooking fish and it got just a little
smoky in here and so there went the
doors and the windows because the fire
alarm kept going off and I'm just like
oh my gosh so there went the heat out
the door as we were warming up the house
and trying to bring the smoke down but
he may fish and shrimp for himself for
dinner a change from our turkey dinner
and then I was so mad so my heart was
set on sad if I can talk my heart was
set on having tomato soup
the girl cheese so much nothing
extravagant just something simple all he
calls me out and it's like hey honey do
you want to heat up your soup because he
had already prepared everything else I
was like yeah that's fine and I'll come
in there right now
I go into my cupboard where my soups are
I had none I'm like where are they
so yeah needless to say I did not get my
tomato soup I had to end up having a
sandwich and a little bit of pasta on
the side but I just was like carb with a
carb used to love that type of stuff and
now it was just like okay but you
definitely see it affected my attitude
sitting at the table was I was highly
upset I did not get my tomatoes darn it
so anyways that was my ramp for my
dinner night but it's all good and you
know as long as we've got food in our
bellies that's all that matters and my
kids satiny with me the same thing I was
eating they were a happy campers
although Omar did eat fish he loves fish
he can--he him and his dad could live on
fish so he doesn't eat shrimp he won't
do this whole shrimp thing but he
definitely does the fish so and then of
course
Maya was anyways um so I am going to go
through and read a couple messages I'm
not gonna go through a whole bunch but
I'm just gonna go through a few I
thought it would just be kind of fun and
then close our night so anyways um this
one comes from Myra Claire and I'm sorry
if I say any of these names wrong I
pretty sure I think I can pronounce a
majority of them but if I say any of
these names wrong I apologize ahead of
time she said yes you did rant today
kinda was getting annoyed that I still
watched till the end
anyways Amy can you do another video
of all a cooking I will make two I would
like to see how he made that month
mocchi I didn't spell it right but you
know what I am talking about that
cabbage roll I think throwing in some of
his cooking in your daily video is a
thumbs up now mind you I have not read
any of the comp well I did not read this
comment ahead of time and I don't care
if I read it or not ahead of time but
I'm going to express my opinion and my
answer to how I would respond to her now
which I will respond back in message
also but I'm gonna respond this way
sorry put you on blast Myra I was not I
didn't mean to like read that message as
something you know but I will say that
you know what I don't take that
offensive at all like I've said a whole
bunch of times everybody is allowed to
say as they please on my channel I do
not get offended when people have a
different opinion everybody is different
everybody has their own opinion and how
you want to express yourself is a
hundred percent okay as long as you're
being fair and just and not being
abusive or rude I don't foresee any
reason why someone can't express the way
they want to express so to answer your
your message I am very sorry that you
got annoyed with my rant team obviously
you guys know that that is not something
that I normally do but it's something
that I very much strongly believe in and
I feel that sometimes it's okay to talk
about those things and if it's
considered ranting then I guess it's
considered ranting and I'm sorry if it
has offended anybody I didn't think that
what I said was offensive I was just
saying that I wish there was more people
out there that would help in times of
need but at no cost was I trying to be
offensive or be annoying and I'm glad
that you watched till the end because
either way around it this is who I am
and I just you know I'm proud to have
you here on my channel and again I am so
happy that you feel free to you know to
post and message as you want as well as
I have the right to respond back and I
take what you say a hundred percent and
I will definitely put those things in to
mine that you know someone didn't care
for the ran teen and I apologize again
that that offended you and that that was
really annoying I am really sorry and
for sure you know I definitely want to
have Ali cook more in my videos and he
does cook a lot sometimes I'm unable to
record them if I am you know trying to
mother my children or something it's
kind of hard sometimes to stand there
and record although I could you know
definitely hook up my phone with my
tripod and he could just go to town and
you know do as he needed but um
sometimes that's not even feasible
because I need my my phone along with my
laptop sometimes because I'm trying to
answer messages and going back on
different you know channels and so but
definitely I'm I am taking everybody's
you know wishes of what they want to see
and trying to put it more into my
channel as most of you guys know all he
does own his own business as car
salesmen and there's a lot of changes
that we're really hoping is gonna be
changing soon but in a good way if that
does happen that's obviously gonna be
taking my husband away from our home a
little bit more during the daytime so he
may not be able to cook as much but
guess what that means you guys give me
so I will definitely be trying to put a
little bit more of cooking into my
channel I'm so happy that you guys enjoy
all he's cooking and the way that he
cooks and he is an amazing cook he
definitely knows how to do the ins and
outs for sure he knows seasons that
taste really good together he can make a
mill flavor so well
I will say that that's a very strong
Cara stick of Ali's as he loves to cook
and he loves to serve so that's a
definite plus and I'm really happy that
you pointed that out um and with the
mocchi um that when he doesn't make us
often it is a very long long process
because you have to boil the cabbage and
then you have to roll each cabbage with
the rice and all of the seasonings and
stuff so it takes a good sometimes three
to four hours to make just the pot that
he did which makes a lot but it does
take a long time and he his back gets
hurt in there at the very end we
probably will have it the next time
probably around New Year's because
that's when we're gonna have another
turkey dinner so definitely I will let
him know to let me know the next time
the heat definitely makes the mushy and
I will try and do as much videoing as I
can for you on that because I I do
understand that a lot of people want to
see how these things are put together
and seasoned and stuff so I appreciate
the comment of interest next message is
from Jody Wilcox more people need to be
generally loving like you such a huge
kind heart ami the world would go around
smoother if we all had half person of a
heart my response to her was you are so
sweet babe thank you so much I just try
to care for others as I want to be
treated and honestly I don't understand
why there is so much hate in this world
it just breaks my heart every day that
there are more people in this world that
are for themselves than trying to help a
neighbor out in need and that's exactly
where my heart is I I love to serve and
give and if that is anything that I can
do to help a person out in a time of
need and it might not even be a time of
need just because you're not in a time
of need doesn't mean somebody doesn't
want to receive something and so if I
can help in any way to help people or
give to somebody I will do it because if
I can just do one percent
of making this world just a little
better for my children that are growing
up into this world then I pray that more
people come around and do the same but I
appreciate Jody your comment I I love
the fact that you see me as the person I
am trying to be it's always my first
initial thought in the morning is what
can I do today to make this world a
little better and that's how I start my
day before I even put my feet on the
ground is I think God every day for
giving me another day to open my eyes
and be blessed with another day with my
children and my husband and along with
that is what can I do today to make this
world happy what can I do today to make
somebody else's life just a little
better so I really appreciate that I
love that you notice that okay life by
Jim I'm just starting to watch your
video but oh my god I love love love
your pants where did you get them
also does the Saturday after
Thanksgiving have a significance in your
faith or it isn't just the day your
family picked good question Jim so I did
respond back and you could read the
message but well I guess I can just read
it yes I love these things I got them
from torrid so these things are my pants
I get them from I got them from torrid
right now two day before the before
midnight which you guys won't missed it
if you haven't seen it already because
tomorrow it is Cyber Monday so
everything on cyber is usually throwing
some type of a sell kind of like a Black
Friday so right now the pants are on
sale I seen them today so I posted in my
comment Jen I posted the link to the
pants that I have and they are on sale
they're 50% off right now but by the
time you see this if you haven't already
seen the message that sounds gonna be
off but they always have sells so always
keep your eyes o but they are like comfy
pants I get them from taured if you get
them today at Cyber Monday
everything is 50% off with free shipping
I got a size 6 they are so comfy and
about the saturday thing no I just
wanted a day close to Thanksgiving but
to respect my husband and his feelings
about that day so we met in the middle
and picked that day to be the day to do
our dinner for future years
so as we're placing traditions with our
family since our family is new and we're
growing and you know yeah you know our
children are little we're putting new
traditions and that we will set forth
for our children for future years and so
with that it is definitely something
that I wanted but I also wanted to
embrace my husband's feelings and and
respect his feelings and so you know
being able to meet in the middle and say
okay you know what the weekend after
Thanksgiving is a perfect time for our
family to come together and have an
amazing turkey dinner enjoy all the
sides and just embrace family time and
so that's why we chose that it really
had nothing to do with religion versus
just my husband's personal feelings
about it and so yeah that's why we did
what we did no filter family his arm
question mark laugh out loud it's a wing
cyst and it's feathers it's not hair
hilarious that all he did not correct
you he is a good cook I can tell you
have to love me no filter family ah
I choose special words for my vocabulary
and I talk about Turkey like it is a
human okay that thing looks like it's
just laying there like change me change
my diaper that's what and to me of what
I'm looking at it so what I'm sitting
there looking I just like visualize
that's his arms that's my cousin warm do
you hold him up like a turkey I mean it
with you when you hold your turkey up
you hold it under its arms always that's
what I call mom sold their arms but yes
if
want to talk technical their wings yes
but it cannot vision me eating a bird
it's just yeah so when I seen the hair
feathers oh that grossed me out I was
like oh and yeah I don't think all he
caught it to be honest with you I don't
think he caught it as he reads these
comments he probably will catch it then
and be like oh my god I didn't even
catch what she said because he's so used
to me saying stupid things like that
that he just probably filters it out
like it just didn't even probably
register to him because the things that
I say at times when we're talking he
probably doesn't know where I come up
with half of the things that I come up
with so yes its wings and feathers but I
will still call it arms and hair oh my
goodness let's see another one this is
see this is from cat lady 0:03 April
mama Wow
turkey dinner looks delicious so glad
that Esther wasn't outside
I was scared until you found her your
nails look great congratulations on two
more pounds whoa
are you still coloring in pebbles on the
chart that you made at the beginning of
your journey I would love to see it now
what is your total loss so far so proud
of you Amy you are the best keep up the
awesome journey thank you so much April
I appreciate that comment sometimes it's
nice to hear it really is sometimes nice
to hear and be reminded that losing two
pounds is still a good it's a good set
forth and now there was many of you guys
out there that reminded me that two
pounds is two pounds hey it wasn't two
pounds up it was two pounds down so
that's a good thing and yes again the
turkey was delicious it was nice and
juicy and Ezra I know she is a little
turd sometimes she has her own little
way
days of doing things and so when I could
not find her at first and I'm like and I
kept saying Ezra she'd say you hear very
vainly no and I'd be like where is she
at like we don't have stairs we don't
have enough II like that and if she was
in the rooms I wouldn't be hearing her
at all because our rooms are clear back
so I was just like where is she at
so then Omar was standing there looking
at me kind of smiling like he he knew
but he was not to tell me where she was
at
yeah be ganging up on me all the time so
finally I was like she in the toy box
and then Omar she's hiding and then I
was like s Rach come on No so yeah yes
my child was in the toy box thank you
I'm so happy you love my nails well
they've changed since the last time I
was doing them but yes I love doing my
nails it's it's it's therapeutic for me
honestly I love doing I'm there it's
just it's an enjoyment and it's relaxing
to me and you know what I do have my
chart but I have not been coloring in my
pebbles
I totally have I don't know why but I
just got lazy on it so I definitely need
to fill them in and then I will show you
guys maybe I'll work on that on Saturday
when I do my next weigh-in and how much
weight so far have I lost
I have lost a total of since July 11th
when I started my journey I have lost a
total of 67 pounds so far so yeah I'm
excited so in four months right know
July August September October yeah
eleven months I have four months I have
lost 67 pounds so yeah I'm excited I'm
so excited okay
exit 99 says your nails look great you
did a professional-looking job I also
love your pants they look so comfortable
so again yes thank you so much I love
love doing my nails um and I appreciate
that you say they look professional to
me and my eyesight I'm just like me but
I mean I do get compliments all the time
where do you get your nails done I do
myself really do you have a phone number
do you work somewhere I'm like no but I
love doing them and of course my pants
are so comfy I love to my pants they're
floating in my dirty laundry now okay
I'm gonna try and answer this one I
don't know what the name how does
pronounce the name but I'm gonna try sin
Chia T it's spelled SC n CH a space te
you have a beautiful family I love that
oli took the lead and taught his way of
Turkey prep true love it is an awesome
thing great on you and congrats on your
fantastic weight loss keep it up you got
this PS I can't find you on Instagram is
is it posted posted handled correct so I
did message her back already I said
thank you so much and yeah I have I love
when he cooks he always makes the best
food and thank you so much as I was so
happy when I seen two pounds down as
well it is under Amy's life journey on
my Instagram from biker babe hey girl
it's your blood pressure laugh out loud
look at the start of your video look how
pale your face is with the red patches
that's because you took a shower and
overdid it with your blood pressure
spike
now look towards the end of your video
your color is more even and the red
patches aren't flared up okay now I
never realized how hairy your hubby is
I'm probably the only one that notices
small things but when he is cutting the
onions I had noticed his hairy fingers
and what's really funny as my old man is
the same way so okay yes I have to agree
with you about the blood pressure and
actually I did talk to my doctor's
office today and
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he is gonna be calling me back tomorrow
with some more questions and that might
be what's going on is my blood pressure
so we're gonna go out tomorrow and we're
gonna go tomorrow and get a blood
pressure monitor because mine broke as I
told you guys before so he's not gonna
be very happy the doctors not because
he's wanting some readings as of the
last few weeks because I was supposed to
be doing blood pressure readings and I
haven't been and so because of that he's
not gonna be very happy because I
haven't been checking it so he's not
gonna get a really good idea of what my
blood pressure readings have been so I'm
I'm really I've got to get to Walgreens
tomorrow and pick up a blood pressure
monitor so I can start doing that and
about the whole Harry thing you are not
the first one to mention that about my
husband my poor husband yes he is Harry
and I love it I feel like I'm always
snuggling with a teddy bear hymns and
his hairy fingers but that was hilarious
I died when I read that I just I was
laughing so hard
okay next comment is from captain napkin
vlogs this is a beautiful story Amy that
must have been the longest four months
in your life we're talking about
Jeremiah's adoption this is a beautiful
story Amy that must have been the
longest four months of your life I would
love to hear your foster care story
sometime if you're ready and comfortable
enough to tell it by the way the doctor
telling you false info about your
fertility was fate you might not have
adopted Maya have you heard different he
is a doll I said yes I was deaf it
definitely was a for it was a definite
long form hunts for sure and for sure I
will have to share that is a long one so
I will have to make that in its own
video and yes you are right I never
thought of it that way to be honest and
thank you so much I love him dearly and
I appreciate you taking the time to
message me and updating or uplifting me
and bringing you know not just bringing
reality to
what you said by fertility was a fate to
be told that because your right had I
gotten pregnant I wouldn't have been
looking for you know that precious baby
that I wanted so bad and being able to
be his mother is the best thing that
could ever happen to me so for sure for
sure you're right on so anyways that was
fun you guys
I will have to do some more of those as
time goes by I will drop some more
comments in and answer some and talk
about a little bit of them I think that
would be a lot of fun another thing too
is you guys keep getting questions
brought to me that you guys want to know
about me and Olli we will be doing a
question Q&A; here very soon but I need
to get some more questions up because I
haven't received enough to really make
it worth a video also please do not
forget we have our live coming up on
November 29th at 5:00 p.m. Pacific
Standard Time I will be on for an hour
to do our winner giveaway so I am so
excited to see who's gonna be the winner
I am getting lots of names put in now
and I can't wait to see more added so
don't forget to go into my description
get my email and email me your name get
into that drawing so you don't miss a
chance to win a beautiful gift anyways
you guys I'm gonna go ahead and close my
vlog I hope you guys enjoy today I will
check in with you guys tomorrow at some
point not sure exactly what's on the
agenda because we've got a busy busy day
but I will check in with you guys for
sure sweet dreams you guys bye bye